Cash is a dream baby. He wakes up either once or twice a night. He's a good nurser. He's a cuddler. If he can't sleep at night, I lie him right on my chest and we can both sleep for hours like that. I feel like I can't get enough of him. It still feels weird to have him not in my tummy sometimes. I feel like I just can't get close enough. I'm always amazed at the amount of love I feel for my new babies. It's a celestial kind of love. Yesterday in ward council we had a training and we talked about how on this earth, even though it is a telestial place, we can still experience terrestrial and celestial joy. It totally resonated with me. Because every time I bring a newborn baby home, I just can't imagine ever feeling that much joy and happiness and fulfillment in any other circumstance. I sincerely don't believe it's possible. How can any feeling ever be better? Maybe in heaven we just relive the days when we have a newborn. That would be my heaven.
Cash smiles all the time in his sleep! More than I think Jax or Jonah did. He never has cried unless he's hungry. He's just so perfect. Jax and Jonah are still adjusting. Today Jonah told me that I have "two babies" and I pulled him onto my lap and said, you're right! You are mommy's baby huh? I thought I would feel more guilt trying to split my attention, but I haven't as much as I thought. Cash is so easy, that it's easy to split myself three ways. McKay is the one who gets not much attention. We always tell each other we miss each other when we have a newborn haha. But anyways! Jax is at t-ball and Jones and Cash are sleeping- so this is precious time! I'll write more soon.