On a bridge with my baby

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I have never scheduled newborn pics with any of my babies, except for Jax. It's kind of sad and irresponsible but also, I think maybe it's subconsciously because my experience with Jax's newborn pics pretty much scarred me for life, haha. I won't say her name (cause I am super nice) but we had this lady take these portrait-style pics. She did it at her house. (She was actually really good and I love the photos of Jax.) But ANYWAYS, being the new, not-confident, don't-quite-know-how-to-comfort-my-baby-every-second-yet mom that I was, I could not get Jax to fall asleep for the session-so she had to take pictures in short, panicked, very time-sensitive spurts and I think that frustrated her. So then, after a couple hours of frustration she blurted, "HE IS THE SADDEST NEWBORN I HAVE EVER SEEN!" And it completely crushed me because I was desperately trying  to do everything I possibly could to comfort and console my brand new newborn and I just couldn't. I held it together for the rest of the session, but right when we got in the car I started bawling and I held him on my chest the entire way home (which I know, that's bad). And he was completely calm and he fell asleep on me. We just needed to get out of there. It was just awful. 

But I am a strong believer in a baby's ability to sense calm. Which is one of the reasons that I loved this newborn session we did, just as a family. We brought a tripod but never got it out because we had parked illegally and were rushing of course! I'm kind of sad we have no pics of the five of us. But Cash was totally happy and these were genuine sweet moments I never want to forget. We made him be naked under that little romper and he was such a trooper! Story of his life. Trooper easy baby boy. We love our Cashy-Cash. 

And FYI I did put him in his carseat after this non-traumatizing session. ;)