Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Hi! It's me! Remember me? It's okay if you don't. I don't know if I remember me. I am sort of losing my mind. Our house is finally sold. The inspection is finally done. And now all we have to do is wait for everything to close. Finally. Do you know how hard it is to keep your house clean when you have a Jax? It's really hard. Life is crazy and fun. I spend every day thinking about how much I wish time would slow down and how much I don't want my kids to grow up. I guess if you think about it, it's slightly depressing- but how can I not? Actually, I hope I can get to the point where I do not. I actually try to think about how much fun having teenagers will be...but then chubby fists grab my cheeks and little slobbery lips try to nurse my face and I can't help but think, please don't let this ever end.
I'm still not sad about leaving our house. The other day, after we found out our house had sold, McKay and I walked into our kitchen and hugged each other really big- trying to be depressing. Trying to give this place where we began our family the right kind of sad goodbye. But after we hugged we looked at each other and laughed and I said, I'm not even really that sad... and McKay said, "me either." I don't know. My parents split when I was in elementary school- so for years and years I went back and forth to my mom's and my dad's. I remember thinking (even in high school) I just can't WAIT until I am married and I have just one house that's my home. And this house has been exactly that! I think for McKay too- because he has never really had strings attached to Boise. So this place that we painted and taught Jax to walk in and had our biggest fights (and make-ups) in was both of our first real real home that was just ours. And we're not sad to leave it. It's so weird to me. Maybe we will be sad when it's empty. Actually, typing that and thinking about that already makes me sad. But for now, we are just excited. I think it's because we get to bring everything we love with us.
And honestly, I am getting really sick of the paint here!