I seriously should be sleeping right now.

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Hi! I'm done paining! Can I have a pat on the back please? Painting is seriously the worst thing EVER. Remember when I had to clean all the blinds in my house and I actually cried because it was so tortuous? Painting was almost that bad. But now I am a happy girl because the whole new house is painted and so are the kitchen cabinets (minus the cabinet doors). The house is no longer yellow. 

This last week has been bitter sweet. Sweet because of all the projects we are working on. I love making our new home ours. I can't wait to get in there, unpack our stuff, light a candle and just cuddle, us four, on our couch...and breathe. The being-so-busy is the only bitter part. I miss my boys. They have been babysat a lot. It's sad. Jax has been mean to me because he thinks I keep abandoning him. He keeps hitting me and then being really clingy and then mad at me again. I can't say enough how much I can't wait for everything to be back to normal. 

I was sitting on the couch next to McKay tonight thinking back to a month ago when we would look at each other and say, I love our life! Just out loud to each other. I was thinking about it actually because McKay said it to me tonight. When he said it, I was kind of thinking uhh..why...Obviously my brain didn't get too deep into that thought, BUT I have been a huge downer lately. I am exhausted. I'm sore. Jonah doesn't sleep. Jax hates me right now. My fridge is in my garage so I have to put on shoes and go out there every time any of us are hungry. I'm just like blah. I want to lay on the couch and watch a movie and then sleep for 10 hours straight. But then I don't want to sleep because I need "me" time. But then I need time with my kids because I miss them. But I'm so exhausted. 

Welcome to my brain. 

But then tonight something happened. I had been gone almost all day- I got home with Jonah and I went up to our room and it just felt clean. Which was weird. And then I noticed something! I noticed McKay had folded the MOUNTAIN of laundry on our bed. I'm not even egaggerating. MOUNTAIN. So so so many clothes. The biggest pile I have had in my house. He folded all of it! He came home from a stressful day of work where he had to to a huge presentation he's been nervous about, took Jax so I could get stuff done, folded all the laundry, did all the dishes, and built a fort. I heart him. That was the best part of my whole entire day. I hope when I am old and lose my mind I at least know who McKay is and that he is the most perfect man for me in the whole entire world. Because he is. And I'm glad he is not a whiner like I am.