Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Start to Finish
I'm bored. McKay is still sick. It's 11:41 and I am going through photobooth on my computer. It consists mostly of pictures of my family, with randoms of my brothers doing faces with the weird morphs. Some while I was giving birth with me laboring in the background! ha
We find out the baby gender on Friday. I am not freaking out...yet. I thought this week would be so slowww. Like SO. SLOW. But it's not! At all. Last night while we were in the car I did a scenario in my head: pretend that tomorrow you are finding out the gender! (That's what I thought to myself). And I got so anxious and excited! So I know that tomorrow I will be dying. But right now, I am thinking about baby number one and how big he seems- at the same time, I know he's not.
The very first picture up there is the very first photo I ever took on my computer. It was when McKay and I were just dating- not engaged yet. We were trying to "study" in the lounge of my apartment complex. Don't worry, we weren't making out. I don't even know if I had let him kiss me yet. Probably not. It may have been the day of the most sneaky cheek/lip kiss ever though. That was my very favorite shirt he wore. It was the shirt he wore the day he ignored me in the school library playing hard-to-get and the shirt he wore when he proposed.
The very last picture on my photobooth is of a squished banana in my carpet (which I actually posted on this blog...see how exciting I am now?!) So instead, I chose an almost-last picture.
I keep thinking about how our family has grown. All starting with two people who didn't even know each other four years ago. It is just crazy to me. From that, to a tiny baby boy and an even tinier baby on the way. I keep looking at Jax and wondering how it will be possible to love another little person as much as I love him. Then I was thinking about my mom and all her kids. And I just think that if I have that many kids and I love them all this much than my heart will probably just explode and I will die.
*correction. we WERE engaged I guess! I had a ring! haha